i think i figured it out. i have always just done as i felt was right. but through some mind fuck twist i have started worrying about how i am perceived to others.i haven't even been blogging because i now feel the need to answer to people about what i was thinking... it says up there ^ that its a spot to post my thoughts. not fodder for your conversation. just if you want to know what im thinking, then its hear. if you want to question my thoughts? don't expect me to wast my time