think about it first

USE your mind.
no seriously, take time to think about stuff that doesn't easily flow through your predigest, things that take energy to wrap your mind around. not like math problems, although they can be used but to really understand things like the sun never sets and Australasians don't fall off the world , how do they view the globe. what was my grandfathers childhood really like and how did he think of the future. accept that your view of the world is probably wrong and construed through the layered beliefs placed on you by fear laden hearts. people who didn't mean bad, but were trying to protect you from a world that had hurt them or worse scared them. challenge all of your beliefs. the more commonly held an opinion the more you need to search for a reason to maintain it. your life is just a short rhythm on your sole and you really don't have time to to be lost in others fears. when you can clear your mind and use it to do your bidding other than just cycle through fear based emotional spasms. then, Then you can ask me your questions.
strip your self of fear so when you stand in gods presence you can stand.
god will not have fear and to rejoin him you may not either
your fears are now yours, and are now your fault. you must cure yourself.
the good news is its easy. just challenge every thing that you think. tear at your thoughts as a starving dog goes at the marrow of a bone.
don't look to others for approval. you must find approval within your self. only do what you approve of you doing. never regret. NEVER. for your past has lead you here. and from the here and now you are going forward. relentlessly pursue your self your own mind your own moment. the place ware all eternity cant be with out. it is that place in your mind you cultivate.nothing is too big or small to be questioned. there is no blasphemy in thought. the only true blasphemy, comes from not thinking. from being to lazy to use your mind thus accepting anothers ideas as truth. use YOUR mind.